This moment is copacetic This shot - didn't think I'd get it All this stop and go Never quite sure where the hell I was headed Still toward this dream I jet'd Even with the odd's being so pathetic Felt a fire inside Could not rest...until I let it Flow like lava Off of my tongue Life is a journey Mines just begun 93 million miles from the sun Embracing every little thing I've become Live a good life Have a little bit of fun Seems everybody wants that same outcome We all got a past Trying to rise up from Chasing dreams Getting it done My truth In these words that escape me Can't let opinions Shape me I don't worry if they love or they hate me Too busy with real life lately Took this mic and a pen Plus what i've held in Bled on beats Like I didn't have skin Real life music Reaching places that I've never even been See nothings perfect and Nothing is promised But I swore to god if I got the chance That I would keep this honest No more holding it It's about time I let it go Stay on that real shit Straight streaming from my soul (Chorus) Farther than I ever I thought I'd ever be Deaf to what they tellin me Follow my heart, cause its compelling me It's all that All that All that I'll ever show Cause its all that All that All that I've ever known My life transcribed within these pieces Compiled it into a thesis Living in the season of decadence treason Is it all that All that All that they've ever known I bet thats that All that All that the world is ever shown (Chorus) Disbelief, self doubt and curses Recognizing all my purpose Introspective projection Reflecting what's beyond the surface Left my pride and apprehension Got fueled by this damn ambition No time for that competition I just wanna make them listen To a little bit more Then the gats and the gun play Ain't about my swag on the runway Not about that life Thats a part that I don't play So much more I feel that I gotta say With these Restless thoughts Transmitting right through a speaker Verbal ventilation When levels chart right off the meter You get this one life I'm living every moment Time is selfish You can never borrow never Only own it So never hold back If what you feel is true The impossible is plausible If you believe in you Far too many gimmicks Pretending to be authentic All out of pocket And acting hallucinogenic One with this mind state These thoughts that I create They on that negative I just wanna elevate (Chorus) Follow your heart The truth inside you See through the love and hate Don't let it blind you Everything is not lost Must I remind you So many think that they know But you define you So I set the record straight Pour out all my love and hate Hoping others can relate To this non-fiction I demonstrate So i'ma take this chance Set it free It's not about where you are It's where you're trying to be... (Chorus)

Starting to think I need a therapist Difficult to bare all this Pain inside - fills my chest Suffocating just to wear all this Trying to make some sense Of these thoughts inside my brain But sometimes it gets too difficult Can feel me drifting down that drain Sinking in this hopelessness Man I wish that I could cope with this Is this really life? Didn't think it all would go like this Seems like no one notices I'm masking my pain If I show less than perfection That's when they start to think you're insane Can't say I know where I'm going Or even where the hell I've been So far gone - out of touch Moved to another state called oblivion Dreams that I would live again Before something got the best of me This darkness has arrested me Broke me down to nothing.... Now there's very little left of me I'm drowning in despair Lost my conscience Will to care Broken, lonely Soul empty Now i'm just cold and bare So much that's left unspoken Can feel my heart breaking open Clutch my chest as i'm choking Take this from me My hands are open (Chorus) The sun don't shine around here In the dark facing everything I fear The sun don't shine around here One day its gonna come around One day its gonna come around (Chorus) Pouring my pain through this pen that ink from under my skin Ask me why I don't smile As I nod and just grin I won't - play or pretend Wear my shit on my sleeve And I can't seem to shake it So its probably best that I leave So tell me... Where do you begin When you're at wits end Try to stay afloat But you can't even swim Lost in the memories Of what could have been Regrets got me wishing I could do it all again Right around then Friends turn foe Knifes in ya back With couple of low blows Man I gotta get back up From this all time low Not the side That I really wanna show See the mirror is perfect But the reflection is broken Trying to keep my head together Even though its cracking open Wish that I was only joking But shit is all too real Late nights got me Living on the edge Just to see if I can feel Gotta be Something more than this These thoughts oh so torturous Twisting me contortionist I don't wanna feel anything like this Too many days gone by Nights I've lost Sadomasochistic addiction Gotta get myself up off this cross Before everything I know is lost (Chorus)

You wake up In same state you that you were before Lost in all this emptiness And pain numbs down to the core On the edge of breaking Got you feeling like you just can't take anymore Plus no one ever really understands you Is this what you're really here for? You front with a smile Play it off - Like as if everything is fine But inside you just can't take it Feel like you're bout to lose your mind Wish you could slow it down But we can't stop time. Just relax - take a deep breathe Realize its part of the climb (Cuz I see) Everything around you just coming apart (And I feel) The pain inside your chest with every beat of your heart (And I know) Sometimes we get lost out here in the dark Your journey is far from over Each day brings a brand new start Just know thats there's Another way out Hit rock bottom Gotta pull yourself out Bypass That negativity And doubt Believe in yourself It will work itself out Searching through that fog The answers gets hard to see Just know you have a purpose Yes you were meant to be (Chorus) Feel like you're slippin away Can't give up Know you'll be okay Cause we will not be broken We will not be broken And when you feel yourself Coming apart I'll pull you up right from out the dark We will not be broken We will not be broken again (Chorus) Everyday day You loose yourself just a little bit more And the mirrors reflection Revealing imperfections you try to ignore The weight of the world on your shoulders It's never been this tough before Feels just like a prison Locked inside without any doors They use words like weapons To cut through your skin Never able to appreciate That beauty you possess within So don't take no stress from them All you gotta do is block it out Be yourself Live your life No time for what they talking about No more Judgement - persecution Conflicts with no type of solution Self medicating to escape the confusion Agony without resolution The loneliness and seclusion Happiness seems like an illusion These times are hard But you best believe This is not the conclusion. You're so much more Than they say you should be Stay positive Set yourself free Stand up tall In a room of enemy's Be the real thing Not a wanna be You gotta stay strong Don't give up the fight You've come too far Don't give up Everything's gonna be alright (Chorus) It's a brand new day Nothing can stop you Just try your best Know I got you They may not care But know that I do I'm here for you I'm here for you When you feel that your fallin off I'll be the one to put you on March through this heartless season With a chest that beats so strong Alone and lost Call out and I'll come find you I'll be that that first one standing up there to remind you. (Chorus)

I am only human And I make mistakes But I'm also man enough to admit when I'm wrong No way to dodge or play it So I confess, I'll say it... I was so wrong and a mistake Yeah I fuckin made it The role I tried to play it You kept me captivated But I fell short on reciprocating Love that was demonstrated Intimidated Afraid of what this can be How could I love you when I barely understand me? Blind to the facts These things I couldn't see Your love the perfect gift I took for granted selfishly These memories Make it so hard to try and let it go That's probably cause You gave me something I had never known Sometimes I dial your phone To know your doing fine A certain comfort in your tone Gives me peace of mind Wrong for the way I treated you back then I recognize my mistakes And all I'm asking Is that you'd a place Inside your heart To forgive me for letting this fall apart (Chorus) You know I never ever meant to hurt you I was wrong And I didn't deserve you Sorry for the tears you cried For all the wrong I apologize (2x) (Chorus) My memories mausoleum resurrect thoughts just to see um Good times and laughter Those feelings - Miss how you used to free um Chemistry was automatic No question that we had it Plus you were down for me Quick to let somebody have it Charismatic but never dramatic Used to ease my mind Whenever my head was filled with too much static A good thing We should of had it But we lost it all And it was too-late to combat it Mad at myself Cause we were so close And the love I amputated was mis-diagnosed Now you're apart from me Yet Still a part from me Forever connected to my heart Just Like an artery I know you moved on And you're doing fine And I'm the farthest thing that's from your mind can't rewind And thats fine Cause I'll always love you, until the end of time (Chorus) I'm sorry....

Everything is picture perfect But you're not staring at a photo 2 hearts now beat as one I serenade your solo Looking extra cute Smiling in that polo The world around us still It's like we're moving slo-mo You stare into my eyes Like everything you see No you don't gotta fight this feeling Work with it, set you free These things are meant to be So its best you don't procrastinate And please don't let that past Stop the present from being great So just breathe me in Adrenaline rush flowing through your skin This love journey we can both begin All you gotta do is let me in And we'll make this right This time you'll see When I'm in your mind And you think of me.... (Chorus) Been afraid to try another time Now it's on your mind It's on your mind Do anything to make you mine... (Cause I wanna just make you mine) If I could be in your mind Be in your mind Show you a love that could last a lifetime If I could just Be in your mind Be in your mind Show you a love that could last a lifetime (Chorus) Your thoughts intertwine with mine Such a flawless design Comparable to nothing No one comes close to mine Bring you peace of mind So can you unwind No classifications Cuz what we got can't be defined And when they thinking that im talking sexual This love is smart - intellectual Heart is the thing I want next to grow I got you on the rest Thats no question tho... So take my hand And I'll let you lead Fill up those empty spaces When you put this love on me A conscious dream When you come around Goose bumps from the slightest whisper From my voices sound And we'll make this right In time you'll see When I'm your mind And you think of me... (Chorus)

Got no one else to blame I sat and played this game Just thought this would be different Now I see its all the same I see the picture now We're just a frozen frame Cuz whenever we're apart I not the one you claim You see Undoubtedly That we both got passion and chemistry No question - that this was meant to be When i get you alone - I feel your energy Never wanted to just pretend to be But I fell so hard when you were into me Never really knowing where all this could lead But i felt your heart Gave it a new place to breathe I never said this but You got a piece of my soul If I could rewind that clock I would take his spot And make you feel whole Tell me how And why did we Get caught up In this mess Lay my head On your chest And i'd never need another Cuz your the best... (Bridge) Take me take me Down down Take me take me Down down In your love I could just Drown drown Every time you Come around, around (Chorus) And I wish that And I wish that That I could love you so And I wish that And I wish that That you were mine to hold And I wish that And I wish that That you belong to me And I wish that And I wish that I didn't have to dream But if you play the game You play with your heart But if you play the game You play with your heart But if you play the game You pay with your heart But if you play the game It all could fall apart Now I'm reaching for you Just want a hand to hold Reality has set in I'm empty and I'm cold Shouldn't have payed attention Ignored what I was told But thats the price you pay towards something That you can't control Now its less of you that I get to see Mostly visit my mind through my memory Back in your arms - that's the place I'd rather be But I guess...that there ain't no room for me 1080P it's clear - I can see it will always be him right over me Won't forget everything that you showed to me Can't deny you still got a hold on me You know I'll always remember That beautiful day in november When we let our fears just surrender And I felt your heart...so tender Tell me how And why did we Get caught up In this mess Lay your head Right on my chest And you'd never need another Cuz I'd be the best…. (Bridge) (Chorus) And I watched you As you disappear into the dark Taking with you this piece of my heart If only you knew what you held in your hand Or maybe you knew all along But just didn't wanna understand.....

Faces look alike But papers a different type I used to keep em close Felt they kept me lookin right But I was looking right Through the things I couldn't see That Face value And that shit that they pretend to be Often offending me Then befriending me Shit are we friends? Should I tag you as my enemies? Either way were paper thin Kinda thinking I should trade you in Cause there anit no telling what you talking bout Before I walk on in No need to play pretend Can't say that I'm astounded Sometimes you leave that trash Right where you fuckin found it But I got surround Couldn't split um apart But now i've emptied Every ounce of love I once saved in my heart No need to start With that fraudulence and fakery Keeping my distance Never going where you taking me Thats why I only kick it with a certain few Catching feelings hearing this Maybe cause I don't fuck with you… (Chorus) Careful who you trust Have you think that they all in The ones you least expect Same one's to have you fallin Counterfeit Better watch who you let in On the same team But not trying to see you win Trying to run game So i'ma call you out You on that fake shit No time for what you talkin bout Counterfeit Better watch who you let in On the same team But not trying to see you win Trying to run game So i'ma call you out You on that fake shit No time for what you talkin bout Counterfeit Better watch who you let in On the same team But ain't trying to see you win (Chorus) They abuse Then they abandon Disappear with the quickness Something like some kind of phantom Insincere compliments With the hopes that you'll enchant them But thats a loan That I could never grant them I used to smile and stay Then look the other way Making up excuses For that shallowness that's displayed But your ugliness don't pay So I had to cash out Friends and money Neither one is lasting in the fast route Switched up my mind state Split real from the fake Lowered my tolerance For some bullshit I will take Would much rather break Go out on my fuckin own keep them faces genuine Pass up on these fuckin clones This life is too short And I won't be wasting time Shit time is money Get nothing from my lifeline Put up a bright sign Tell um no vacancy So from afar You'll never be mistaken me… (Chorus) Stay on some other shit Got places I'm trying to go Yeah they throwing shade... Tell em kiss my fuckin asshole I let em play the part Shit I know they type Smile in ya face But love to cut you when just out of sight Took time to get it right Now I kept it drama free No need for that extra shit I rather keep it low key I play it stupid Got you thinking that I don't see But the pictures clear Total transparency Got burned and learned a lesson Had to fall back And not pick up that line When they would call back I watch them faces flip Thinking that they all that Inauthentic Yeah - that's what you call that When I had a need Where the hell was y'all at? Playing them damn games I copped the baseball bat So miss me With all that faking and foolery Weighing down my neck Like some fucking fake jewelry

Should have seen the signs Read between the lines But I was caught up Love leaves you blind Words left me dangling A heart with no spine  Foolishly believing Every part of you was once mine Excuses and sudden lack of time Made your face One of the hardest things to try and find Now I'm alone Got these thoughts in my mind When I should of known better Cause this was all just a waste of time..... My heart had walls That you managed to climb Plus you opened up And shared your life with mine I saw the pain Tasted the tears from within I said I'd do my best To make sure you never hurt again And right when I let down my guard You put the knife in my chest And I went down hard You stole my heart And left me with a scar Now i wonder Did I ever really know who you are? Or was this all just a game Words with friends All in hopes of for an exchange Colorblind I should of stayed in my lane But I tried to understand What you could not explain Insane for thinking we could sustain But you stole my heart Left me with the veins Funny how quickly you can just change And now somethings missing Don't feel the same (Chorus) Tossing and turning in my bed I just cant sleep All I do now Is write these letters to a thief Write these letters Write these letters I just write these letters You got me writing these (letters letters) You got me writing these (letters letters) I can't stop with these (letters letters) Hoping one day I feel better…. (Chorus) I thought we had something A bond that could never break Now these pictures in my phone Only make my heartache Used to celebrate The times spent Made love to you Until both our hearts were content You took my power Like you dethroned me What is this That you've shown me Wondering ...was I the only? Replay it back What was real? What was phony? Remember? When you used to hold Whisper in my ear Caress by body slowly Thinking back on all the shit that you once told me How we go from everything To something cold and lonely Priorities Guess I never was your only Missing your voice But too busy to phone me Actions said the words That your lips should have told me (yeah) That your lips should have told me... Don't know how I managed To stick it all out Half the time you pretend   To not know what this was about Left me all alone just to figure it out Put your heart next to mine Now you ripping it out In my bed room crying What is this all about? Tears on my shoulder You having some doubt? Thought you could finally see What I was about But your too selfish I'm probably better without…. May you one day you remember What it was like… To have All of me To have my heart To have my mind To know What it was like To be loved… (Chorus)

You stay up in the gym Pump the iron for power Looks make you sweet But cha attitude is sour Posting pics online Living for that "like" sign Love it when they say "you're fine" It makes you smile every time As you stare into the mirror Who you love becomes clearer Don't get the love you can't deliver Get your way or get bitter Thousand things to blame Excuses and the pain Thought the past would make you change But you never feel a thing... But yourself... (Bridge) See you just love you And no one else Seems nobody one does it better than yourself See you just love you And no one else So if you marry.... I hope you marry yourself... (Bridge) (Chorus) Marry yourself... Marry yourself... Marry yourself... Marry yourself... No room for no one else No room for no one else That's why I hope you marry... Marry yourself... Marry yourself... Marry yourself... Marry yourself... No room for no one else No room for no one else I hope you marry yourself… Got you buzzin off your ego Pretending for your people Man in the mirror Insecure is what I see though Thought we could be equal But that shit you talk is lethal Intimidate to manipulate With a smile so deceitful All bronze less brains Watch for the chest pains Your hearts the weakest muscle No wonder why that shit strains All that emotion you never learned to contain Now inhumane Unable to feel a thing.... But yourself.... (Bridge) (Chorus) Didn't anybody ever try to show you? (show you) Didn't anybody ever try to hold you? (hold you) Like I did… Like I did…. Didn't anybody ever try to hold you? Didn't anybody ever try to show you love? Like I did… Like I did…. (Chorus)

Right from my infancy Angel had been sent to me Love and guidance The gifts that she would present to me Would give anything Just to try and see me smile Ways off from perfect child Bible beatings when I was wild Made it seem like heaven But we were based in hell Doing our best just to make it Oh the stories that I could tell This life is do or die I know how hard you cried Can't help but love you With everything inside (Bridge) Though you made it on your own You know you're not alone And in those times you don't feel strong I'll help you carry on (Bridge) (Chorus) And I could never be too ashamed To say I love you I love you... (yeah) And its never too much To tell you that I love you I love you… (yeah) And I would never place nobody else Above you Above you (yeah) Cause I just wanted you to know That I'm there where ever you go Wherever you go… I saw a demon take a human form In the bed that kept you warm Battles between love and hate That kept you torn Empty promises Plus them scars that left you scorned Never faltered responsibilities From the moment I was born These memories I share Cause I was right there Threats to steal your life We left his ass right there And without that father figure around Still kept the clothes on my back And my feet on the ground (Bridge) (Chorus) All that I can try to do Is show my gratitude Cause none this would be nothing If not for you Realist of the real You are the token of what's true The one I put my life on the line for And that is you The one I fight for Sacrifice for Give up everything In my life for No type of pride for Or a need to hide I spit these bars To let the world know how I feel inside... (Chorus)

I say goodbye today Giving this life away Ran of reasons really Why I should stay Just need to start it over Find another way I might come back But its really hard to say Something more to be Is what I'm trying to see But that'll never be Too much here hinders me I wanna live in truth And not pretend to be The weapon is the second hand Clock the enemy It's now or never And im too young to die Too young to feel ashamed Like I should have to hide I am who I am Wearing this skin with pride But the inner workings Get push to the side And whatever higher power Knows that I tried I kept on reaching out But every hand was tied Never seeing me For all I am Caught up in my preference Damn, not again (Chorus) I'm gone, im leavin I'm gone, I'm leavin I'm gone, im leavin I'm gone, im leavin I'm gone, im leavin I'm gone, im leavin Need something to believe in And I don't really know where i'm going I just know I'm gone Chasing forever So hard when you don't belong... I used to have a balance Thought that I had control Tried to save it all But dug a deeper hole But that's just life right? Shit is always cold For every single choice We gotta pay the toll I guess its time to move on To something new Seems I've done everything That there is left to do I'm okay with solo I never need a crew Less room for disappointment When its only you This is no place for me Does not feel safe for me Shitty circumstances And chances just to take from me Waited so patiently But its not safe to be Content with emptiness And this complacency My last trick Is my escape from me Moment of truth But I have faith in me It's time to go Nothing left to say I'm blastin off Before I slip away (Chorus) Colors fading As I stared up at the crescent light No refunds or even exchanges I wondered is this the cost of life Is fate predetermined From deep within the womb Or can what's in the dark Still rise above and re-bloom? (Chorus)