Starting to think
I need a therapist
Difficult to bare all this
Pain inside - fills my chest
Suffocating just to wear all this
Trying to make some sense
Of these thoughts inside my brain
But sometimes it gets too difficult
Can feel me drifting down that drain

Sinking in this hopelessness
Man I wish that I could cope with this
Is this really life?
Didn't think it all would go like this

Seems like no one notices
I'm masking my pain
If I show less than perfection
That's when they start to think you're insane

Can't say I know where I'm going
Or even where the hell I've been
So far gone - out of touch
Moved to another state called oblivion

Dreams that I would live again
Before something got the best of me
This darkness has arrested me
Broke me down to nothing....
Now there's very little left of me
I'm drowning in despair
Lost my conscience
Will to care
Broken, lonely
Soul empty
Now i'm just cold and bare

So much that's left unspoken
Can feel my heart breaking open
Clutch my chest as i'm choking

Take this from me
My hands are open

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The sun don't shine around here
In the dark facing everything I fear

The sun don't shine around here

One day its gonna come around
One day its gonna come around

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Pouring my pain through this pen
that ink from under my skin
Ask me why I don't smile
As I nod and just grin
I won't - play or pretend
Wear my shit on my sleeve
And I can't seem to shake it
So its probably best that I leave

So tell me...
Where do you begin
When you're at wits end
Try to stay afloat
But you can't even swim
Lost in the memories
Of what could have been
Regrets got me wishing
I could do it all again

Right around then
Friends turn foe
Knifes in ya back
With couple of low blows

Man I gotta get back up
From this all time low
Not the side
That I really wanna show

See the mirror is perfect
But the reflection is broken

Trying to keep my head together
Even though its cracking open
Wish that I was only joking
But shit is all too real

Late nights got me
Living on the edge
Just to see if I can feel

Gotta be Something more than this
These thoughts oh so torturous
Twisting me contortionist
I don't wanna feel anything like this

Too many days gone by
Nights I've lost
Sadomasochistic addiction
Gotta get myself up off this cross
Before everything I know is lost

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